No one prepared me for what I have experienced this past week! My youngest daughter had a knee reconstruction surgery better known as ACL and meniscus repair. It was very easy to have a MRI to determine what needed to be repaired. It was easy to schedule a routine second opinion. It was relatively easy to decide on the surgeon. Better yet, the date of surgery was penciled in on a business card that I could easily transfer to my Google calendar. We were all set. Everything had essentially been taken care of and all I simply had to do was wake up and take my daughter to the very convenient surgery center at 5:30am to finally begin her road to recovery.

Then… It hit me. My 17 year old daughter would be undergoing major surgery and I need to be concerned with her being put to sleep, reactions with the medications, what kind of support I will be strong enough to offer (become jello around needles/doctors/wounds etc.) and simply what do we do next. We have never had surgeries before. We have been blessed with health and we simply don’t get sick. What should I expect? Oh no… I will have it rely on others opinions, suggestions and decisions!

It happened… I am in full melt-down mode. Wait! I forgot to read my “Jesus Calling” daily devotional, forgot to let the family know the times of surgery, learned that my disconnected ex-husband would be meeting us at the surgery center and I did not eat or drink anything after midnight so to not tempt my daughter! You get the picture?

I drove my daughter to the surgery center, earlier than expected, checked in, paid my expected co-pay, settled into my waiting room make shift desk and proceeded to login into the FREE WIFI. I was prepared, confident and calm just like my devotional prompted me.

Door opened and “Stock” was called out. Here we go. My daughter was calm, polite and quite charming. The nurses, staff and doctors were terrific. My ex-husband blended into the walls and I was blown away by the sense of peace the consumed me. The process was beginning and I had all the confidence in the world in everyone and everything around me. Wow… No worries. What a feeling!

I say my goodbyes with a little tear of confusion, walk gingerly to the waiting area, grab a cup of coffee and then…my backpack slides off my arm jiggling the coffee enough to spill over my hand and onto my pants. I quickly pat up excess coffee and attempt to make it to the desired seat in the waiting room and my ex-husband sits in MY seat! A sign that i chose to pretend it was not important. Settled into a seat next to the wall and proceed to login to the FREE WIFI so I can begin my day with my dream morning online experience. WIFI did not work and desk staff only have posted the password code for the day on the wall but have no understanding of the workings. Of course, I can use my poser iPhone. I had one bar reception and for some reason the battery decided it was time to surge for no apparent reason. Unconnected but still holding on to the hope I can watch a WordPress tutorial or catch up on my Google reader. My ex-husband, whom has little to no understanding of the value of the Internet, has flawless Internet access and an iPhone! Why? Just another sign that I need to ignore. Getting harder… Surgery center phone rang and a pre-teen answered the phone as if was HER BFF was calling. No, instead it was hear “Stock, that is not my name” then hanging up the phone. I could not get to the child and phone fast enough because of my seating arrangement, the enormous amount of junk I brought with me to causally work on during the procedure and my remaining coffee. When I finally was able to get out of my suffocating web, prevent me from worrying shelter, I walk around as if I have a real pressing task at hand. Thank God, my cell phone alerts me to a text. My partner has gives me a great distraction! He reminds me to read my devotional, talks to me about minor creative changes we were trying to resolve on our new WordPress site ,injects some humor and allows me to feel in useful! That’s it. I need to feel useful. After I toying with all the additional, ridiculous, odd but humorous incidents of the day, I realize and wonder why today and these obstacles?

I can tell you that my 17 yr. old daughter has survived the surgery, mastered the crutches, simply is the best patient ever and WE are going to be stronger for it.

Until… The insurance company … I will just say… Expect obstacles!


The Blog is the Solution!

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I do not like to make quick decisions. I typically get a vision, I play with the idea in my head. I begin considering how it will work, alterations, concessions and finally outcomes. You get the drift! I plan, plot, create and design in my head the entire journey, then set my course for action and that is where I stall. Application needs approval, consulting, more bouncing around with the outside world…close friends, co-workers, family and other times with the experts in the realm. Yes, this routine renders me useless until till I decide I simply cannot spend anymore time on this idea. Then my idea never becomes a project. Why? I over think it! So… I launched project – Just Do It!

Just Do It Project – I decided it was time to stop thinking and simply do. So I created a last minute hurried fundraising school year appointment calendar. The purpose was to help mothers’ organize the whole school year events and commitments with the families personal scheduling needs. The yearly calendar began in August to coordinate with the staring of the school year and was a big hit! So much so that loyal customers required the new school year calendar by the end of May to prepare before school as well. I was able to stay interested by working on the new layout options and designs. Then I hit a wall… The publisher restricted my layout options and design elements to front cover, front four pages and two index pages plus increased the price! Restricting my creativity restricts my desire to do it. Change the layout… The fundraising calendar lead to another calendar with a different focus…monthly creative CD case size display calendar. I used the accessories of the fundraiser to create the design of the months. Then, I changed the design to focus on the people of the fundraiser. So much fun… Tux and Pucks – 2005 Hockey Calendar featuring the players and coaches on the ice dressed in tuxedos. I loved every minute of the photo shoots, photoshop design trials, layouts and the anticipation of the funds that could be raised for the team. End result was a black and white unique fun spirited calendar. Sales were awful! Lesson learned never allow anyone to sell my ideas without the spirit behind the work. How could it fail when a ugly school year calendar was so successful? Tried another sport – basketball and same result only the parents of the players bought the $5 calendar. Ended my calendar days, by creating quote calendar to giveaway as Christmas gifts and birthday gifts. Hey… Maybe I should make a quote calendar in a school year weekly format featuring school teams…. not! I do not want to simply do for the sake of doing!

Idea: Blog my ideas. A blog sounded great until I had to research all available platforms, themes, widgets, plug-ins. It is the busiest time of my life, tons of obligations and many adventures I want to explore so there is no room for a blog. Project – Create Something that Helps Others!

Helping Others Project – I gave everything I have had: time, money, thought, deed, prayer and for what? Whatever I felt needed my help. I have loved it and hated it but I would never change it. Enter – Project – Secure My Future.

Secure My Future Project has come out of the need to provide for myself, take care of myself so I can continue to provide for those that need my help. I have given for so long freely that I resist putting a cost on my services. It makes me uncomfortable to price an action I would do anyway. I have been blessed by having a business partner that knows and understands this about me but will not tolerate it at the same time. Remember restrictions make me reject; however, I have been give an outlet… a new business WordPress website and blog! A valid worthy productive reason and a creative playground to promote our cause, events and new ideas! What a solution…Hog Heaven! Rejoice and prep for my next project – Mastering WordPress!


A beautiful surprise for my birthday.

Today is the day I always looked forward to all my life. I would use this day to gauge my progress over the year. This year is a little different. I have spent the year focusing on the current needs of others and this has changed my life. I realize now… that each day has the potential of being the day that a life will be changed. Why did it take me SO long to see this so clearly?

I believe that I was still seeking the direction of my life. Looking for the answers.

Be still… The answers will find you IF you are sharing your gifts that you were given.

Today, June 11, 2012, life is being enjoyed, shared and treasured. Take the time to establish your faith, your dreams and you too will be found!

Remember love is a very powerful thing. Practice it!

It Is Time!

It is time… with my birthday knocking at the door, embracing a new paleo lifestyle, mastering envelope budgeting, postponing DYI projects, and launching a new business… to start a blog! My plan is to use this blog to educate and encourage my readers to get involved. Get plugged in now…don’t miss another opportunity to share your passion, experience and understanding with others. You will change lives.

Join me as I blog about my current challenges, issues, joys and dreams. I am looking forward to sharing and being shared with…