Search for Why?

happiness quoteI am on my own personal search for “Why”?  I have learned many valuable lessons over the last two years that have allowed me to TRULY restart blogging.   I began my website when I was inspired by a freeing change in my life that allowed me the opportunity to simply search for who I am.  Now, I am still searching but for the “why”.  Stepping back and looking at my life through a different lens has been refreshing. Before, I did not want to revisit my past.  No particular reason except it was not interesting enough to bother. This was very hard to grasp as I never felt as if my life was uninteresting.  I was caught up in trying to create unique traditions for my children to cherish and to count on so they remember the dynamic upbringing that I gave them.  I never realized how my children became my life’s hopes and dreams. I gave up on my personal hopes and dreams and focused only on what is the best path for my children.  I wanted no wrong turns or bad decisions.  Unrealistic, yes, but I took my time to research, explore and decide and then implement.  It was worth it!

Now my search begins… I am having a difficult time staying focused on how I should invest my time.  I have so many things I want to do… Long term… I want to learn more about building brand awareness, helping non-profits organizations, web development (build a plugin/outline a mobile app) and new community projects. In other words, education! Short term… storage issues resolved (memorabilia and my boxes of past project materials), decide on the colors I want surrounding me, plan my stairwell theme, stage my home for Thanksgiving (cheaply) and complete my Christmas shopping before December. In other words, material things!

So… in the meantime, I will enjoy every minute with the people I love.  I will strive to put myself in situations that will allow me to broaden my education and I will make an effort to surround myself with items that help me do the first two… 🙂

Think I will start here


The Blog is the Solution!

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I do not like to make quick decisions. I typically get a vision, I play with the idea in my head. I begin considering how it will work, alterations, concessions and finally outcomes. You get the drift! I plan, plot, create and design in my head the entire journey, then set my course for action and that is where I stall. Application needs approval, consulting, more bouncing around with the outside world…close friends, co-workers, family and other times with the experts in the realm. Yes, this routine renders me useless until till I decide I simply cannot spend anymore time on this idea. Then my idea never becomes a project. Why? I over think it! So… I launched project – Just Do It!

Just Do It Project – I decided it was time to stop thinking and simply do. So I created a last minute hurried fundraising school year appointment calendar. The purpose was to help mothers’ organize the whole school year events and commitments with the families personal scheduling needs. The yearly calendar began in August to coordinate with the staring of the school year and was a big hit! So much so that loyal customers required the new school year calendar by the end of May to prepare before school as well. I was able to stay interested by working on the new layout options and designs. Then I hit a wall… The publisher restricted my layout options and design elements to front cover, front four pages and two index pages plus increased the price! Restricting my creativity restricts my desire to do it. Change the layout… The fundraising calendar lead to another calendar with a different focus…monthly creative CD case size display calendar. I used the accessories of the fundraiser to create the design of the months. Then, I changed the design to focus on the people of the fundraiser. So much fun… Tux and Pucks – 2005 Hockey Calendar featuring the players and coaches on the ice dressed in tuxedos. I loved every minute of the photo shoots, photoshop design trials, layouts and the anticipation of the funds that could be raised for the team. End result was a black and white unique fun spirited calendar. Sales were awful! Lesson learned never allow anyone to sell my ideas without the spirit behind the work. How could it fail when a ugly school year calendar was so successful? Tried another sport – basketball and same result only the parents of the players bought the $5 calendar. Ended my calendar days, by creating quote calendar to giveaway as Christmas gifts and birthday gifts. Hey… Maybe I should make a quote calendar in a school year weekly format featuring school teams…. not! I do not want to simply do for the sake of doing!

Idea: Blog my ideas. A blog sounded great until I had to research all available platforms, themes, widgets, plug-ins. It is the busiest time of my life, tons of obligations and many adventures I want to explore so there is no room for a blog. Project – Create Something that Helps Others!

Helping Others Project – I gave everything I have had: time, money, thought, deed, prayer and for what? Whatever I felt needed my help. I have loved it and hated it but I would never change it. Enter – Project – Secure My Future.

Secure My Future Project has come out of the need to provide for myself, take care of myself so I can continue to provide for those that need my help. I have given for so long freely that I resist putting a cost on my services. It makes me uncomfortable to price an action I would do anyway. I have been blessed by having a business partner that knows and understands this about me but will not tolerate it at the same time. Remember restrictions make me reject; however, I have been give an outlet… a new business WordPress website and blog! A valid worthy productive reason and a creative playground to promote our cause, events and new ideas! What a solution…Hog Heaven! Rejoice and prep for my next project – Mastering WordPress!